Bored at work

So yeah..

I’m BORED with a capital ‘B’.

I’m dreaming of Thailand.

Work doesnt really seem important anymore. Its kind of wasting away into the ether. In the greater scheme of things, work really doesnt matter at all.

I’ve got SO much to do this week and its just not happening for me really.. cant bring myself to care about it y’know?

Its difficult.

I think I’m gonna start looking for another job. Something that I dont have to commit so much time to mentally y’know? Something that doesnt put so many demands on my time and my effort. I know work keeps the brain ticking over and stuff but there are plenty of other things I could be doing right now instead of this. I’m not enjoying the pressure. I want to walk away from it.

I’m only realising this as I’m typing it… Jeez. Thailand’s really changed me. Wow.

Watch this space I guess. I need to sit down and work things out tonight. Sort out what I’m going to do with my life and stuff. Heavy man.

I think a TEFL will be the way forward. I need to sort myself out money wise.. a second job might not be a bad idea. Just for the summer. Get some cash behind me.. Then I can think about buggering off somewhere else.

Hmm.. *ponders*

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In other news – I got my Gurpa back! Well.. I havent got it back yet – but I will have! I didnt have time to pick it up when I landed at Heathrow the other day so I just left it.. Then yesterday I called them to see what the score was and they didnt have it.. GREAT I thought.. and THEN they called me back today to say they’d found it and they’d put it in the post for me asap. Brilliant! I cant take it on the plane but they’ll send it through the post! Hahahah..

Excellent.

So yeah – thats me updating my blog.

One more thing – I ate some chocolate today.

Only three tiny pieces. But now I have guilt..

(it did taste good though – YUMMO!)

Speak soon folks..

Koh Samui – Day 2

Good morning one and all,

Its 10:10 in Koh Samui and I’ve just had colema number two. More on that later..

Lets start from where I left off…

Yesterday after I posted I went into the restaurant – had some veggie broth and met some more people.. this one lass, Claudine, was talking about this bloke round the corner called Jet.. (awesome, I know) ..who does Reiki..

So I was listenin away and I was like – “I’m doing that”

I rocked up to Jet’s place and he was like come back at 7pm – so i did.

Wow.

First off: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Reiki Thats what Reiki is.

At first I didnt feel anything – nothing at all – my mind was all over the place.. couldnt concentrate y’know… but then – once he moved onto my arms and my hands i slipped into it – started concentrating on where he was touching me… and at one point.. he had both my hands on my tummy with both of his hands on top of them and it was like he was saying “Its ok.. let go of the pain..” ..and I could feel myself welling up.. The emotion was so raw and so close to the surface.. and yet i didnt break.. it was there though – felt like he unerstood my pain y’know? My upset..

This went on for about an hour.. not the moment.. the reiki. The Moment only lasted about 5-10 mins tops.. but yeah.. afterwards he said to me “Your heart is weak..” and I was like.. “what? do I have a heart murmur or somethin?!” … “No no no..” he said “..your heart is damaged. I dont know how.. male, female.. someone die? Relationship.. yes, relationship. Your heart is weak now and you need to protect it and let it mend before you give it to anyone else.. ”

Oh my god. I nearly burst into tears there and then.

That was so emotional.. he’s getting me a protective crystal to wear – gotta go back and see him soon.. probably gonna have one more session before I come home – see if I’ve made any progress y’know?

So yeah.. thats one giant step for me emotionally. Really feel like I’ve started to let go now.. Proper nudge in the right direction.

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What else – well this mornin my friend Zoe made me weigh myself and I really didnt want to know yet.. but they (my other mates) all insisted.. so I did. I was about 14st before I started my pre-cleanse two weeks ago.. and now? ..now I’m 12st 10. I’ve lost loads!

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This morning I managed to get up on time so I didnt miss any of the treatments – which was good! ..after that I went to the 7:30 meditation session.. that was weird.. had a proper moment then too – it was odd – “Active Meditation” they call it.. Lots of movement – I couldnt handle it. I was there for about 45mins but then it got too much for me.. I had to leave.. Chillout – I broke into a sweat and then my hearing went.. it was crazy. Lauren (this other, actually quite cool, girl I’ve met) reckons maybe I’m trying too much too soon – I took a large step yesterday and maybe I need to rest a bit before I try another.. I think she has a point.

Ok

So I had my second colema this morning – that wasnt half a odd as the first one.. but yeah – its not painful – its quiet cleansing – you feel light afterwards y’know? I’m into the whole massaging of the colon bit now… you kind of let the water in a bit.. then massage it about a bit – then let more in.. repeat massage then let it out.. odd – but it makes sense when you do it – trust me!

yeah – so that was ok..

What now..

Um.. I’m gonna log off and go see whats going down. Steve knows a bit of palmistry and said he would read my palms in a bit – so that should be cool.

Also Lauren has gone to tryout this kind of Egyptian Reiki called Sekhem – thats with Jet too – so i’ll find out what thats like and come back to ya – maybe give it a go myself!

:o)

Catch ya later folks.

Thanks for listenin’/readin’.

P45 Anyone?

So yeah..

I nearly quit my job today.

I got REALLY fed up with my boss taking me for granted. I was so close to just telling him to stick it.
I really surprised myself actually.

I’m really not that kind of person at all but for some reason today he really got to me Dammit!

Basically, the first week of every month we sort out the accounts for the previous month. It takes five days (at best). We’re given four and a half.

So this week, not only have we lost a day due to the Bank Holiday but also when I turn up to work Tuesday morning my boss doesn’t even give me a chance to tackle my monthlies.

He’s like: “James, I’ve got two jobs that need doing. One to be done for tonight and one for tomorrow…”

Needless to say, I’m STILL working on these two jobs and I’m yet to even start my monthlies! I mean.. what’s that about?!

And the most annoying thing is – he expects me/us (the other folk in the office) to work earlier/later to get it done.

No.
He doesnt expect..

He takes it for granted that that is what we will do.

And THAT hacks me off…

So yeah – I didnt quit. But I’m not enjoying work at the moment…
Think I might start looking around again.. or failing that – what’s to stop me staying in Thailand?

I’d be lying if I said I hadn’t thought about it…