This time last year I was on my plane setting off for Thailand.
I just had a quick squizz back at my blogs from last year..
Here’s today’s entry: (2006 style)
“The time has come – tonight ladies and gents I will be disembarking to Thailand!
I can’t wait!
Woooo..
At 21:35 this evening my flight will be departing Heathrow Airport and heading for Bangkok International!
Yay me!
I have shaved my head in preparation of my finding my inner Buddha and fingers crossed I’ll come back a changed man!
And well…
Those of you who knew me before I left for Thailand know how much this journey meant to me. You know how much good the trip did me.
You know how much has changed over the past 12mths.
It truly is astonishing.
Those of you who didn’t know me before I left for Thailand?
March 2nd 2006 –
I came home from work (at my mind-numbing and soul-destroying accounts job at the Daily Mail) to my clearly very distraught Wife….
She told me that night that we weren’t working.
That our marriage wasn’t working..
And that worst of all.. she wasn’t in love with me anymore.
It killed me…it tore me to shreds. I hit rock bottom harder than I’d ever known.
And oh my God it hurt.
But…
Looking back – it was without a doubt the best thing that ever happened to me.
Two months later I’d booked myself into a detox spa in Koh Samui, Thailand for ten days of mind, body and soul cleansing…
I’m going to spend the next ten days or so re-reading my diaries from Thailand and re-gurgitating the choice parts on here again.
So much has changed.
So much…
More soon.
PS – I know that some of you never knew about my marriage.
I never mentioned it on here.
Ever. Not even in my private diaries.
So I don’t really know why I am now..
I just feel I can.
I’ve always felt I could. But I just chose not to.
Apologies to those who I kept it from.
When I arrived in Thailand I didn’t want people to judge me. I was afraid of what people might say… I blamed myself.
“A 26yr old divorcee!” I thought.. “I don’t want them to know that.. know how I’d failed at something like that at such a young age…”
Silly huh?
Sounds silly now. But that was the place I was in when I first arrived there almost exactly a year ago now..
The good news is I’m not in that place anymore.
I haven’t been there for a very long time.
I’m gonna hit the sack now.
As I said. More to come over the next ten days or so…
I’ve missed blogging.
Haven’t had too much to write about (blatant lie) and well y’know…
I’m looking forward to re-reading my memories.
See you there.
J.
